Dear Sir,

FUCK OFF AND DIE, k?


I have issues alright? Not my fault.

Meaningless noise

I came, I asked a pointless question; I left.

*scream*

I don't know what to do, or more, how to act when I come across these situations. It's kinda annoying.

I feel like such a dick, why would I even let it get to that? What was I thinking when I said those things?
Could never be anyone elses fault, why is that? Why do you always blame yourself? My mind kinda has a small spaz fit so many mixed feelings; depression, annoyance.

Makes me wanna scream! I'm just a stupid kid, I don't understand these things... But then it feels like I never will.

You.

Hey, hey, hey,



I don't know who you are, but I read what you wrote and it upset me.

You don't know who I am, but I write shit; apart from this:

Smile?

Because you're alive, that must mean something.

Oh...

Snap. I actually just fucking snapped.

Watch out, this mouth has never met the soap.


I fucking hate you! Why don't you just go fucking kill yourself, you useless, degenerative piece of shit. Your brain is a cesspit of moronity (I believe I just made a new word). You're the best proof there's no God. D'you know how impossible it is to make me angry? Well congratulations you cock sucking, hypocritical, two faced liar. I hope you're happy.

Blow me you pretentious little twat. Suck a fuck, 'cause I hate you.

History.

You might never meet me, for I am King.

Eyes over you.

Feel Alive.

And I wanted you to know, today won't go down in stone.

And I wanted you to know, I never meant for this. Today won't go down in history.

So shut your eyes.

Sharks And Danger.

[Woman]

St. Catharines Psychiatric Help Line, how may I help you?

[Man]

I'm sure this is going to sound very ridiculous and uh... I don't exactly expect anyone to believe all this. Uh... for the last little while I've been kinda keeping correspondance with my sanity for a while, and uhh… I really get the feeling that I’m starting to lose interest in the letter writing process. The pieces of the letters, they just get progressively shorter and shorter until it’s not even a reply. I uhh... the whole thing makes me really nervous. I just wish I could show you what a huge problem this is.

As life hangs beside me
I gather all that I can
You were never one for confrontation
But now it lies all in your hands

Your hands...

[Man]

I kind of have this... Really terrible habit of asking myself all these stupid questions, right? Like what if uhh… what if there's a spot on my body that I can touch to stop my heart from beating? or like what if, what if theres this uhh... stray bullet out there that’s gonna come through my window and take me out? like what if uhh... what if theres this huge unstoppable comet that’s just gonna like, destroy the earth and all of us? Like what... what if that’s happening right now? How can I avoid all these questions if I don't have that? Like, who is gonna be here? Why... who is gonna be there... in the hospital? Who is gonna tell me that all this is bullshit... its a dream? Just a dream.This is not a joke. And uhh... i'll never sleep.

Who will be there to tell me how stupid I am?
Who will be there to tell me how stupid I am?
Who will be there to tell me how stupid I am?
Who will be there to tell me how stupid I am?

Who will keep me from lashing out? (lashing out)
Anxiety chokes me like razor wire (razor wire)
Who will keep me from lashing out? (lashing out)
Anxiety chokes me like razor wire (razor wire)

Now it's all in your hands, in your hands [x4]

(Anxiety chokes me like razor wire)

Anxiety chokes me like razor wire, razor wire... [to fade]

[click]

-Alexisonfire

The Academy Is...

Forever alone, until I found you
And now your always there
There's only your scent on my clothes
Oh, but when the sun exposes all my demons,
will you stay or run away?

I'll help you find your way
Every moment you're awake,
You know I'll stay
Even in your dreams
I'll pull the stars down from the heavens,
To fill your empty skies
I'm yours tonight
I'm yours tonight

Wherever you go, they say I'm bad news
When everyone agrees,
Whispers start sounding like screams
Oh, but I know what you want
To say before the words escape your teeth
Will you just believe?

I'll help you find your way
Every moment you're awake,
You know I'll stay
Even in your dreams
I'll pull the stars down from the heavens,
To fill your empty skies
I'm yours tonight
I'm yours tonight

My good intentions, can leave the hardest parts
The harshes scars you'll never see (you'll never see)
My bad impressions, oh they will follow me,
Making enemies that I can't see

Forever alone, until I found you
And I know that you'll stay
You won't run away

I'll help you find your way
Every moment you're awake,
You know I'll stay
Even in your dreams
I'll pull the stars down from the heavens,
To fill your empty skies
I'm yours tonight
I'm yours tonight

I'll help you find your way
Every moment you're awake,
You know I'll stay
Even in your dreams
I'll pull the stars down from the heavens,
To fill your empty skies
I'm yours tonight (I'm yours tonight)
I'm yours tonight

Posts without titles are annoying.

I don't like this anymore.

...and that's how I wound up on a stretcher, in drag, with Oompa Loompas and furries. How was your weekend?

Packing fudge.

Aspirations. Everyone needs some. Mine:

Programming - not done anything in the past 2 months.
Bass - a few days, but I praticed loads before hand, so cut some slack.
Falconry - work in progress, doing a course at college, planning on a twelve month course sometime for £12'000 at a falconry centre.


Need money. Dammit.

Bunny.

I blame you for everything that may come to exist from this blog.

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